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then last weekend i got coerced into going to "it's like that" for the sole

purpose of seeing rabbit in the moon. the mc was giving this huge

"inspirational speech" about power to the people, we've got to unite and

love our brothers and sisters, and are we ready to make changes for the

future to bring peace, and so on. and everyone is cheering and clapping,

because it is appropriate to do so when "inspirational speeches" are given.

but i am not. i suddenly realise this is because i've become so cynical (or

perhaps just incredulous) that the first word that comes to mind is

"bullshit." i then notice the girl beside me isn't clapping or cheering

either -- she has taken so much ecstasy that she hasn't noticed that the

music has stopped. she keeps dancing just as she had when there was music.

 

she dances by sort of bouncing and turning side to side, fists clenched

tightly to her chest. one, two, one, two. left side, right side, left

side, right side. there is no variety in her movement...or at least no

change is noticeable. or i didn't notice. her head is tilted back -- and

she's a small girl, about 5 feet (1.5m) tall -- so i can see that her eyes

are wide open and her mouth clenched shut. she looks horrified... as if

stricken with absolute terror... for a moment i swear she looks at me

helplessly as if to say "i can't make it stop... i can't make it stop..."

 

and i wonder if she's referring to music she's still hearing or absolute

silence.